( february in san diego – visiting your favorite animal, the giraffe! and a picture from your SD journal from our day at the zoo)
APRIL 17th, 2013
ok, so it happened. you turned six. i told you to stay five and you didn’t listen. i opened your pink door this morning and found that you had grown.
mommy: happy birthday lulu. you are six! lulu: (you thrust out your feet) did my feet grow?
i laughed b/c those were the first words out of your mouth last year.
i miss your chubby sumo wrestler thighs. i miss the days where you would sign for more or milk. and days when you slept in a crib and i fed you bottles. but i wouldn’t go back. because i love who you are today. and i could not enjoy you more. you are FUN. i tell you all the time that you are the best. and it is because you are…you are the best, my lu. i have loved every ounce of your life. every stage (ok, maybe i could have skipped over age 2!) but it amazes me how it just gets better.
you make something out of nothing. the recycling bin is your art store. you tell me..’mommy, some artist use one thing to make their art, but i use everything.’ its true. and you are very messy artist. it drives me crazy and i love it at the same time.
you have never swayed from your amazing social skills. it reminds me so much of my mom, your nana. i throw you in the middle of 100 strangers. within five minutes you have charmed them all. 100 new best friends. i love that about you. you love your friends. you love to talk. talk and play and create. snack. repeat. your teacher has said you are the chattiest child around (she smiles most of the time she tells me this…) they finally put you next to a child who did not speak great english. but your teacher said that did not stop you. you kept on chatting..the kid just staring at you. but he is a person, so he is a friend. and you have much to say to all of your friends.
you went to big school this year. kindergarten. i had heard that children grown up a lot that year. and its true. it was awful dropping you off the first day. i literally feel to my knees when i got home. but you were fine and happy and have been every day since. learning and growing every day. learning to read and other amazing things. its been a big year.
im pretty sure your dimples got deeper this year. they are my favorite. that and your tiny blue birthmark. when we were in vietnam i was so worried the mark was something scary. but it is just part of you and i love it so much. your daddy and i adore all of the little unique things that make you YOU.
what a crazy journey this has been creating our family. who would have thought it would have ended up so completely different then we thought? so much better than my wildest dreams. and now-finally-you will be a big sister. in november you will take on that title. you have asked me a hundred times about the heartbeat. what did it sound like? you are so protective of this little baby already. you caught me drinking a caffeine free diet coke. you took it from my hands and told me that was not healthy for the baby. i am pretty sure i would be living off of kale and carrots this pregnancy if it was up to you. you will be 6.5 when the baby arrives. a big girl. i can’t wait for my belly to get bigger so you can rest your hand on it and feel the baby. you are old enough that you will remember these things. you worry that the baby might be a boy. when you pray at night you thank god for your baby sister. i gently remind you to pray for a sister OR brother. and you say ‘fine. or for a stinky brother.’
life will change for us so much once the baby arrives. it has been me and you up until this point. one hand in yours the other free. the other hand will soon be holding another little hand. your brother or sister. we will not have the same amount of time together we have had for all these years. while my excitement for this new chapter is unreal…there is a little twinge of sadness that these five plus years of over. but we have enjoyed it, haven’t we? we have done it right and had fun. and i will forever remember all of the days we had just the two of us.
everyday on the way to school i ask you if you know how much i love you. your answer is always the same..’a hundred million, more then the stars, more than the earth, more than the moon’. and i always say yes you are right. but then i think-not really. i love you more than that.
lulu corey. you are my favorite person ever. happy sixth my baby girl. xxx000